Realizing The Impossible

It all started when I was nine
All things seemed so fine
Walking with a gun to my back
I wasn’t what they wanted me to be
I never knew the meaning of childhood
Wanting something everyone else had
For me it was impossible to attain
Dying for the love I always sought
Realizing that this was impossible
I tried to shatter my chains
But still I am held down to this day
For those of you who think they are depressed
You don’t even know the meaning of the word

Smile

Do you ever wonder why the sun stays yellow
Why the grass is always green
Why the sloth smiles so mellow
Why everyone is so mean
Don’t you ever stare at the sun setting
And dream of what the future may hold
Or think about maybe letting
Someone say a story never told
I figure someday may be a while
I figure someday I may even smile

Freak

What a shy and awkward fellow
The one who holds his smile so mellow
Holding his head way down low
As he walks the halls so slow
Cautiously answering questions
No one dares to ask him
Covering his head to avoid recognition
Being bullied by his peers
For the sake of blending in
He surely misses this objective
Growing his hair long as a curtain
He is just another hermit
Dodging direct contact
He shuffles from one point to the next
Who he is no one knows
He's just a freak, you know

Firestarter

Strange things have been happening to me
Ugly thoughts and deadly connotations
Birthed from the anger in my heart
The distrust and broken promises
Have kindled an inferno so strong
Devouring anything consumable
Taking everyone down one by one
My eyes are wandering
All the time seeking a new victim
Sparks fly from my stare
Fires starting when I’m around
She drove me to this point
No one else is of fault
Especially me

Misshapen Chaos

What is today but only the prelude to tomorrow
Happiness is a preview of foredooming sorrow
Beating the dead horse to draw the gnats
Feasting on your pity to breed the new generation
You will forget everything in seconds
To make room for future mistakes
Devouring time like the mouth of a lion
Feeding on the corpse of his newest kill
Blood dripping down his chin to a pool at his feet
Dear woman, with your words so deadly
Fiery darts do fly from your tongue
And they are all directed at me
For all the torment of eternity

Natural Selection

We travel along the same broken path
Wondering aimlessly into oblivion
Being chased by starving wolves
Cringing when their breath feels
Ever so close to our backs
Run fast and don't look behind
They'll take you down with ease
Biting down on your pride
They chew away your insides

They will kill you just because they can
Howling and growling as they fight for your remains
No one can run from the demon beasts of the field
Natural selection will eliminate you
It's the way of the wild

Don't stray from the herd or they'll take you first
The side vision of them picking out the diseased
The fear makes you tremble in your sleep
You hide within the group hoping to be avoided
But as they take off, you're left behind
Next on their menu will probably be you
With few in number they are efficient
A sacrifice will be made to appease their hunger

They will kill you just because they can
Howling and growling as they fight for your remains
Natural selection will eliminate you
It's the way of the wild
They will kill you just because they can
Howling and growling as they fight for your remains
Natural selection will eliminate you
It's the way of the wild
Nothing can save you now...

In Memory Of A Friend

My former friend lays on the floor
Among his body lies his memoirs
Pain, failures and all the above
Handwritten in a shaky style
Scared to death for all his days
Scanning through and I cry his tears
Of joy, of sorrow, of happiness, and of loss
Jotting down every detail, of every venture
Meticulous, he was careful to note
Every breath, every swallow
Every gasp, every tear
Every kiss, every denial
I laid down his book in his hands
and laid them across his chest
I closed his eyes and put his life to rest
Such a talent put to waste
Put aside for a different taste
Rather than the excitement of a gig
To the high he got from a cig
Now he's in heaven with the rest
Now he can forever dance

Everyone Is A Suspect

I think I've lost my mind
All because of this rain
Coming down for three long days
Still no calls, still no texts
No idea where the hell you are
No idea who the hell you're with
Paranoia slowly sets in
Are you cheating again?

All this confusion
From this illusion
You put before my eyes
These obvious lies
And rehearsed lines
Who wrote your script?
You're so full of shit

I am on the eve of a revelation
About to end this investigation
Everyone is a suspect
Until proven innocent
In your case, it could be anyone
I just have to figure out someone
Caught red-handed but you still deny
Telling me stories so vile
Your mouth coughing up bile
I think I'll leave in a little while

Dusk Always Leads To Dawn

Forever lost in the library of broken hearts
Lies the heart of a lonely boy
Who made the worst mistake ever made
He ran away from a love no one could find
Something as perfect as perfect could be
He often stars at the sky
Always with a tear in his eye
Thinking of the mistake he made
Wondered what if, and what could have been

Down the road again he marches
Always looking and searching
He packed his things and ran away
Abandoning his responsibilities
To find another love like that
He'll never find something like that
What a foolish decision he made
A decision he will always regret

Now he has learned a wise lesson
Sometimes they are best learned the hard way
Sometimes sunshine gets dark
Sometimes love turns to hate
Sometimes you make mistakes
Don't you ever lose hope
Dusk always leads to dawn

Starry Nights (In The City Lights)

Can you be my sunshine
And light every dark way
Take away all the mystery
Of what I cannot see
Can this wait 'til tomorrow
I want to bask in my sorrow
Flowers bloom in your presence
and demons die by your essence
Beauty in all its purity
Glad am I to have this rarity
You dance to your own beat
You do your own thing
I've got no will to leave
I'm only here to appease
Love me always and forever
And all this will be yours

Evergone

Tonight we're going to sail the seven seas
We'll journey down rivers, and dine on the stars
Crucify our mistakes, and our memories so dear
She is the last of her kind
She's the girl who guides the blind
I'm in love with a shadow
A preview of what is to show
Lovers lost in the dark
With only hope to shine a way
Shaken down by the tales of fools
Rumors, lies, and half truths
She skips stones across the lake
That leads to where we live
In a cabin all alone
Where no one can bother us
Where we can live forever
Hold each other from dusk 'til dawn
Follow her to the pearly gates
The stairway that begins where no one lives

Toothache

I am irritated beyond rationality
I feel dead beyond the grave
She crushes my heart to ash
She sold it all for some cash
Reality distorted to your liking
Total ignorance masks truth
You like this and I know

You cause your own confusion
Staring me right in the eye
You still manage to somehow lie
Well son of a gun if I was right
Never again will I cry

It only hurts when it bleeds
I scream while on my knees
Praying for an answer you won't give
We bask in our self generated sin
If only I could go back
I'd stop this heart attack
You remind me of someone I knew
They killed me just like you

You cause your own confusion
Staring me right in the eye
You still manage to somehow lie
Well son of a gun if I was right
Never again will I cry
Never again will I die
A sacrifice for my mind
You ate my mind
A wishful heartache
You feel like a toothache
You feel like a toothache
You feel like a toothache
You feel like a toothache

Even If You Kill Me

Stand back; here come the big guns
I'm all out of ammo
but your mouth is still going
always talking
its never ever closing
words flowing like bullets
from a submachine gun
injured and bleeding
but the fight goes on

you are so persistent
its drive me insane
you'd rather die than lose
even if you kill me

I still stand tall
with my back against the wall
and give it one more try
even if I will probably die
you bring on the barrage
and I fall to the ground
weeping and bleeding
I guess I will never win

you are so persistent
its drive me insane
you'd rather die than lose
even if you kill me

here comes the cavalry
who get wiped out in seconds
by the torrential winds from your lips
I doubt I can get back up
I guess I'll just roll in my misery
until you make me history

you are so persistent
its drive me insane
you'd rather die than lose
even if you kill me

Butterfly

You won't suffer long my love
I poisoned your well with the truth
I'm afraid that you may convulse
But once the pain is over
Maybe we can start over
Go from point C to point A
And then just maybe
We'll be okay

Last night felt so right
We were alright
Laughing and joking during the movie
All was good until we were leaving
When you stumbled over the curb
As your lover came through the door
A fight ensued and I guess I won
But I started a war that would never end
I don't think you even cared

Always fighting, hardly loving
Confidence shattered like glass
Weak constitutions giving in
Is it me or am I diseased
We'll never kiss again
We'll never try again
We'll never hug again
I'll never love again

NonExistant

I woke up on Tuesday
Thought it was Wednesday
I woke up at 8
Thought it was 12
Where is my mind?
Where went the time?
Where is my mind?

I used to trust my friends
Thought I had true friends
I used to trust my family
Thought I had a family
Where is the trust?
Where went the trust?
Where is the trust?

I used to dream of heaven
Thought I lived in heaven
Now I dream of hell
Think I live in hell
Where is the sun?
Where went the sun?
Where is the sun?
They said it went on vacation
They said it ran away
They said it will never come back

It faded into memory
It faded into history
It faded into memory
Just like me
Just like me
Just like me

The Society of Egotistic Psychopaths Wants You To Join

She walks with a new spring in her step
Another victim gone, another payment
Taking them down step by step
Unsuspecting, they walk into her trap
Stuck deep in her lair, soon they're in reach
She grabs hold and never lets them breathe
Even if she wanted to, she wouldn't say so
A black widow with knifes for legs
Taking them down one by one

I walked down her way but managed to escape
At first, she spoke kindly and acted so nice
Deception her key tactic and addiction is her attack
It's not her actions that stirs up the fear
No is it her intentions so dear
But the shear fact of her persistence
It creates a fermented feeling and stench
Once it settles in your head
It never leaves until you're dead

Vile woman with thy polluted thoughts
Guiding thy own way to eternal hell
Writing all thou evil words
Thou conscious ever looking back
Oh dear Harlot so evil,
Whom is thou beast?

Apollo's Lost Cargo

Shape-shifters are taking over the world

Replacing the positions of all my dear friends

Exchanging them with the living dead

If I had the power I'd kill them all

And bring back what was once so glorious

I tried my hardest to see through their game

Blind am I to the truth set before my eyes


Along came a girl, lost and weary

Full of doubt from visions seen so unclearly

She sank her own ship long ago

I tried to rescue her and bring her aboard

I told her everything would be just fine

She tried to blame me so I'd take the fall

Then she sank my boat as well



Vampires stalk me in my sleep

Trying to kill off this dying breed

They spread the disease to all the others

And now I am the only survivor

The last of my kind, a lost species

Extinct, forgotten; dead



I died later one night while I slept peacefully and somber

Father came into my room and cried “what killed you, my son?”

He turned behind and saw her sneering with an evil grin

She attacked my dreams and my hopes as well

She devoured of my mind and dined on my sanity

And drank of my love only to spit it at my face



What am I to do now that I am dead?

All that was done was never said

I am a floating spirit, drifting with the breeze

Maybe I will haunt her dreams, until she sees

What she has done to me